Have you ever just come to the realization that you are so much better than the world made you feel? That it doesn't matter if you want to wear funky clothes and dance around like noone is watching? That even if the world screams DON'T you can scream I DID! I am finally to a point where I just want to be myself no matter what the norm is! 

I grew up believing I belonged in this box. A standard, boring, socially normal box. One that didn't have room for dance parties in your underwear in the kitchen at 4 am. One that stayed at home and never explored the world. 

Reality just isn't that for me. I'm not the kind of person that fits in a box, I've tried to be and I've gotten to a point in my life where I've been trying to be something I'm not for so long that I get SO SO nervous to actually be myself.


When I said that to my husband today, I realized just how ridiculous that is. I've been so programmed to be this prim and proper non-artistic person that my default in social environments isn't who I really am. It's time I started speaking the things I am over myself, instead of believing the things I'm not. 

I'm the kind of girl that style wise wishes she could be Carrie Bradshaw circa The Carrie Diaries. 

I'm the kind of girl that listens to her music way too loud, and dances at stop lights. 

I'm the kind of girl who wants to live full time in a school bus traveling the world. 

I'm the kind of girl who who likes playing video games, but also loves doing girly stuff too. 

I'm not the kind of girl who has an all black wardrobe because she's afraid to draw attention to herself. 

I'm not the kind of girl who stops dancing because someone might judge her. 

I'm not the kind of girl who settles down and stays in one place because that's what everyone else does. 

I'm not the kind of girl who denies that I like something just because it's not "normal"

I'm no longer going to be the kind of girl who does the things I'm not, and denies the things I am. From now on I'm not going to apologize for the things that make me ME. It's okay to be yourself, and that's taken me a long time to be okay with!